While my father still lies dying - Giaus has disappeared and so has Merlin...I can only assume Gaius, being a close friend of my father's can't bare to watch him die and as for Merlin...I have no idea.

I don't know what to do, I really don't...Guinevere has helped me as much as she can - she's too good for me, really. But I don't think I've dealt with Morgana too well...I have no idea what to say to her...I know she and Father fight a lot, but well...they're really quite similiar and...I don't know.

Most of today was spent worrying, trying to get information from the woman behind the poisoning, she claims a creature forced her to do it and she doesn't even know what kind of poison it is! It's ridiculous! But I can't think what else to do, except torture her and...well...I can't order that...not even to save my father.

If that wasn't bad enough, the...multiverse thing decided to throw its gauntlet into the ring by sending me to a time when my father had just conquered Camelot. He was only my age then, and he certainly has more of a presence...he was a man ready to rule.

But a very...it was...I can't describe it, he said some very strange things...I can't figure it out...he was like almost a different person. Things have changed so much...

I just can't say the same about me...