At today's council Lord Elagon (a man almost as old as Monmouth - and that's saying quite a lot) mentioned that the Feast of Beltane is only about ten days away now. Tradition states that a feast, a fair and bonfires be held to celebrate the occasion.

Except...it seems somewhat...wrong to me to be celebrating while the King is in such a state. Lord Elagon pointed out that the people need something to cheer them up after everything's that's happened.

Of course, I would be responsible for opening the Feast, sitting in the grand chair in the Main Hall, distrubuting the extra sacks of grain for the people of the surrounding villages. All the things Father used to do.

And...as far as arrangements go, Morgana.

I often think I shouldn't miss her, but I do...and it's not something I can say to others, no-one would believe it.

I wonder where she is now...does she regret anything? Aside from what happened to Morgause, who Leon tells me is apparently Morgana's half sister - be damned if I understand the connections. But I still don't understand, why would Morgana be so loyal to one half-sibling, but not the other. Am I really that irredeemable and offensive.

This is getting far off topic, I don't know why I write in this book most of the time, it's not like I've ever had a revelation doing so.

I'd be better off training...